There are certain people, you just keep coming back to.

I realized that I want a younger sibling.  Not really now, I don't want a baby sibling now, if my mom were to get pregnant right now.  That'd be fucking strange, especially because she's not married to anyone else, or have a different boyfriend, and that she's 51, another big factor.  I just think that it would be really cool if I had a sibling who was a few years younger than me, I think preferably a sister, I don't know why, a brother would be cool I guess, either way, a younger sibling would be bad ass.  I don't know why all of the sudden I have a 'craving' for a younger sibling, it must be because I work in a Day Care Center, I dunno though.  Maybe it's like that weird thing that parents get, they were a failed musician or athlete so they want their child to become what they couldn't, or do what they couldn't do.  I don't want to do that to one of my kids though, although I kind of see myself doing that with my kids I take care of.  I'll ask them what sports they like and I can't wait for one of them to say 'softball' and then I realize that I sound like a douche bag and I stop.  I don't want to do that to my kids, I don't want to force them to do anything they don't wanna do, but I do want a well-rounded kid, play a few rec sports maybe, play on a team, be in a play, be a good student academically, be in NHS or something, I dunno.  Not exactly all of those things, but something, I don't want to raise a child that becomes a pot head or drop outs or gets their GED, not cool.  I should quit thinking about my future children, I've still got like 10 years to chill.  I'm just trying to take the baby steps, I mean I can't go from just graduating high school to buying a mini van and dropping my kid off at soccer practice, I think sometimes people forget the baby steps.  I don't want to skip over the baby steps, the baby steps are the most important steps sometimes.