So, I've been from VA for a few days now, things have been ok I guess.  I was hoping that trip would be the beginning of my summer and things would get better after that, I thought wrong.  Summer so far is just really boring, that's all there really is to it, but then again I can't really bitch about how boring it is if I'm not trying to make it better.  But anyways, to the title of my entry.

I feel a little bad that I basically abandoned Katie, that was a shitty thing of me to do, especially because she needed a friend who would understand her situation, and I just abandoned her, I wonder if she hates me, I kind of doubt it, just because I doubt she even thinks of me anymore.  I feel shitty especially because I don't know how many times I said to her, "You've had too many douche bags in your life, and I'm not going to be one of them."  And I meant it, but then I turn around and be a douche bag, I don't feel really bad about this, it just kind of sucks.  I want to go out to Tilt meet some new people, and have fun with my friends, etc., but I just really do not want to see her there, especially with her new girlfriend.  I don't even know if I really think that, or if I'm just saying that, because that's what people say in a situation like that.  I guess that's all I've really been thinking about. 

Except that life is pretty sucky in general.  I hang out with the same friend almost every day, do the same things, do the same thing day-in and day-out by myself, wake up, shower, go to work, come home chill with Nathan.  Right now we are remodeling my brothers old bedroom and making it into an office for my mom, we've only painted the walls, but there's still a dozen other things that must be done.  My kids are graduating from preschool on wednesday, so I think 11 kids are moving up, so the room size will practically be cut in half, which will hopefully make things a lot quieter and better.  My last appointment with my therapist is on tuesday, which is kind of bitter sweet, because for the most part I didn't like my therapist, I was going to say that is the only place where I feel safe that I can say anything, but I don't think that's neccessarilly true, no place or person makes me feel totally safe.

I don't know what to do.  I'm sucking at skating too, I can ollie, it's kind of fucking annoying, I really don't feel like typing anymore, maybe later.