So the summer's been looking lately.  Even though it's not like I'm doing a whole lot, just keeping myself busy.  Nathan and I have been skating a lot, I enjoy that.  I was trying to practices grinds and rolling off of curbs, I finally rolled off of a curb successfully a few times.  I couldn't quite grind though because my board got stuck in between the other part of the bike rack I was trying to grind on, and I nearly broke the nose off of my board.  But I bet I can do it if I just practice a little bit more.  And I'm going to the mall on saturday, I'm excited to do that, I don't know why, I guess just something fun to do, I want to buy a new shirt because I'm supposed to go to Tilt on thursday, so that'll be cool.  And Nathan needs to get some skate supplies, and odds are I'll put his board together, which I really enjoy doing.  I really enjoy applying grip tape to boards, is that weird?  I dunno what it is, I like using my hands, building things, I dunno, that's how I roll.

Ya know what I hate?  When you're walking through somewhere and you see a couple and you look at the guy or girl or whatever and you're thinking to yourself "How the fuck did he get with her?"  or "Dude, I'm so much hotter than her!"  Or something like that, I hate that shit.  I mean not to be all narcissistic and vain, but I mean, I've got a good job, I've got some hobbies, I'm chill I'm a nice funny chick, I mean come on, doesn't some hot chick wanna go out with me?  Then I see these other lesbians and I'm like what the fuck, she's totally not my type!  The hot ones are all either bi and dirty whores or... they live 5 hours away and are dirty drunken whores.  Things like that are frustrating.  Like I've been thinking a lot about my ex lately, but not obsessing over her like I use to.  Mostly just thinking about the past with her, what I wish I could have done, because frankly I didn't work to keep the relationship together, I'm 'man' enough to admit that, because I would be lying if I said I was a good girlfriend.  I just didn't try, and I fucking know that now, and that sort of sucks.  But I don't know, I sometimes wonder if Katie and I would still be together now.  I would love to be with her, go out to tilt, snuggle, ya know fun couple stuff.  But I don't know if I want to do those things with her or just basically any other girl.  And I dunno, I don't feel like typing anymore.