There are certain people, you just keep coming back to.

I'm starting to stress out a little bit about college.  I really want to be smart, I want to kick ass in my major.  I mean I think I'm good at some things at it, but not the stupid scientific aspect behind Media, so I don't know how I'm doing in school.  And then signing up for the Spring Semester started on monday, and it's really weird that I'm not even done with the fall semester!  It's not neccessarily signing up for classes, but because I'm going to another school after my 2 years at MCC some colleges don't accept certain classes from MCC, but so I'm stressing about that a bit, but mostly because... I don't know what school I'm going to after MCC.  I mean, I don't even know what's out there, yeah there's local schools, but I wanna live on campus, get the full college experience.  My mom asked what about Fisher, but I kind of don't want to to go Fisher because my Mom and my Aunt went there, and my sister is graduating from there this year, so that's part of it.  Plus I think my sister would probably flip her shit if I was even considering Fisher.  I don't think I'm smart enough for Fisher, besides I feel like I'm still in high school, like I'm not being challenged enough.  Not that I want to be busting my ass over 5 hours of homework every night, but it's like, MCC is mad easy, that's all.  And Fisher is too close for there to be any reason to live on campus, Fisher is like half the distance of MCC.  My mom said Fisher has a good Communications program, but I dunno.  I'm still not really sure what I wanna do with my life.  I mean my dream job is working for a skate company doing ads, maybe interviews or a photographer.  But maybe even work for a chick magazine and write an advice column, what about that?  Or maybe be a teacher, people keep asking me if I wanna be a teacher.  I think I would want to be a teacher, but it's just the pay is so shitty!  I think it'd be fun, I'd want to work with little kids for the aspect that it's so simple and it's fun with little kids, but I also would want to work with older kids because I want to talk to kids that were like me when I'm older, I want to be that awesomet teacher that kids can come and talk to.  Dammit I still have plenty of time to think about this, I'm tired of stressing I mean, I've only been in school for almost 2 months, I still have forever, I could always take time off if I needed to.  Whatever I need to stop stressing.  I am liking MCC better.  I have to do a photographer project, I'm excited because I like photography and I need to expand my portfolio.  I should just go out and take random pictures some days.  I want to take pictures of cars, that's what I wanna do, because cars are just so sexay, I wanna do that, maybe some day when it's not shitty weather here I'll take some cool photos of my car.  I want to do good in college, I want to go places.  Even if I end up in a cubicle, which I don't want to do, I want to at least end up doing something that I want, not just settling for second best.