So I haven't been able to sleep again.  It's becoming very annoying and making me a little irritable.  Today I did absolutely nothing, seriously, nothing.  Yesterday I did a lot of stuff, went to the bank, got my blacks, went to the mall, got a belt, a shirt, saw a few people I knew, came home, fixed up Nathan's board.  Went to have pizza at my dad's house, on the way home raced a few random Asian kids in their shit ricers, and beat them, yeah my little 4 Cylinder Civic kicked their asses, Nissan Z, Lexus some piece of shit and some Integra, totally powned those Asians, Nathan and all of 490 East can vouch for me.  But that was really fun, definitely going nearly 100 down the highway, adrenaline rush, pretty sweet.  Then we just walked around Gananda being a bunch of hooligans.  Then today, nothing, nada, zip, zilch, but I don't care.  But lately I've been slowly slipping back into my depression, the Zoloft isn't helping.  Sometimes I feel like I need a higher dosage, but they don't prescribe higher dosages I don't think, pretty sure it's just 100 miligrams.  Sometimes I think I'm bi-polar, because I'll be feeling fine some days, then depressed others.  But I know I'm not bi-polar because my periods of depression and mania aren't severe and frequent enough to be bi-polar.

Lately I've been thinking a lot about Katie.  Which really doesn't make any sense.  Because a few weeks ago I was practically completely over her, now again, thinking about her.  Which is even weirder because I feel like my summer has been getting a lot better, enjoying work more, going out more, skating more, and actually getting better at it finally.  Hopefully it's just because I'm on my period, my period makes my hormones pretty screwy,  I dunno, the no sleep certainly doesn't help, I just lay in bed tossing and turning, can't find a comfortable position to sleep in, I feel too cold when the comforter is off of me, but too warm when it is on me.  Maybe I'm just thinking about her so much because I just want a relationship so bad, I don't know what it is.  That's why I stress.  Because before I had dated her I would stress and obsess about not having a girlfriend, and now that we're broken up I let myself get bent out of shape over nothing and obsess about dating someone.  Gawd I'm making myself exhausted by thinking so much.