So in 20 minutes it is my last official day of the summer, bonkers.  So the summer was actually pretty good, what did I accomplish...  Lets reminisce and find out...

Finished my first year at MCC with a 3.2, was incredibley depressed for a while, then officially got over my girlfriend, had my 19th birthday, went to VA Beach, went to Tilt several times, sort of started a relationship with a new girl, skated a lot with Nathan, got in a fist fight with a bunch of red necks, bought mace, enjoyed shooting bb guns, and real guns a lot, went camping a few times, a few bon fires at Terra's, not incredibly deprssed all summer, saw several movies; Hancock, Iron Man, The Hulk, Pineapple Express, going to see Tropic Thunder tomorrow, finished my therapy sessions, Zoloft is doing good, cars good, friends are good, school starts wednesday... So, over all pretty good I guess.  The past few days have kind of sucked but, meh.

So to elaborate on the 'past few days have sucked statement' well this new girl Brittany, who I have mentioned previously in another blog she's pretty cool.  We know eachother through a Psych class we had last semester that she withdrew from mid-way through, then she contacted me out of the blue, and we met up at Tilt, and it was kind of awkward, is it bad that all I wanted to do when she gave me her phone number was just to kiss her?  I have yet to kiss her, we've been talking for like 3 weeks now, but it's so odd.  She lives out in Greece and I live, well out here in Gananda, so she lives about 45 minutes away, is going to Brockport, and I'm continuing to go to MCC for... well... ever... and she works in Day Care, just like me!  So that's cool.  So we have yet to see eachother at all during the summer, except for the loud 5 minutes at Tilt.  We talk on the phone and text about everyday, and I actually really like this chick.  I totally had a crush on her back in Psych class, and I never even talked to her, I was just waiting to, and never got the chance, but now I have my chance, and it's slowly slipping out of my grip.  I don't really know what to do, it's been sort of difficult, when I get in a funk about a girl it just throws everything off, I can't focus on work or school or anything, I don't really want to.  We need to hang out sometime, it's just been a pain in the ass.  And I think she actually likes me, I'm honest with her about my feelings, things I'm feeling and so on, and I let her be honest with me because as I said to her I want to be honest with my feelings, but that doesn't make me disregard hers because her feelings are important to me as well, and she replied back to that "You're too perfect."  I would never have thought someone would have called me perfect.  I want to be with her badly, it just sucks because we're both busy.  She's not technically my girlfriend, it sucks.  I'm starting to feel like things won't work out whatever 'this' is anyways.  But I like her, she's beautiful, adorable, ambitious, cooky and funny and I can be honest with her, I don't let her trample all over me.  The other week I ordered her flowers and she got them and she liked them.  And she talks to her mom about me and her mom like already loves me because I'm good with kids, and her mom wants to meet me, it's like she's not even my girlfriend, but it's just so awesome!  I'll have to call her tomorrow and try to figure things out.  She hinted at that she wanted to see the laser show at high falls tonight, but I was unsure just because I had no idea where it was, parking, blah blah, bunch of shit, I've gotta tell her that so she doesn't think I'm a jackass.  I texted her that is sucks that we have yet to really see eachother and she didn't respond back, I hate it when she does that, when she doesn't respond back to a text, that's the only thing I don't like so far, that's it, my biggest complaint, when she doesn't reply back, rotflcopter.